Sooooo busy...

Wow, this is great. Truly great...I'm finally so busy I don't know what to do with myself...lol...I've gone through many stages in the last year, but busy was never really one of them...at least never in a good way... Now, I'm moving again...this time to my very own home...and there's so much to plan...I want to paint the inside, work on the front and back yards, there's so much to do at this new place we'll be busy for quite some time...I also have decided to start my own company, so I'm in the process of writing my business plan so that I can approach some investors and get some funding. If all goes well I should be up and running by mid-fall and hit the ground running with the Christmas Season fast approaching...that would be awesome. I feel good. I have a purpose. I have plans. I have wonderful friends and the best family a gal could hope for... Keep your fingers crossed for me kiddies...this is bound to be an exciting time in my life and I hope you'll all wish me luck! Love you all....

Mamacita

Told ya I'd be back soon...

Well, here I am... The last few days have certainly been eventful for me...I've finally purchased my own home! Applause please!! I'm thrilled...it's a little old house in the town of Welland... a fixer upper to be sure, however, it's MY fixer upper! I can't wait to move in and transform this space into something that will reflect my personal style. I'm already planning...I need paint, paintbrushes, curtains, a sander, a lawn mower, a hose, a ladder...so much more...Yipee! I can hardly believe it. You see, over the last few weeks I've been reading The Law of Attraction and Cash in a Flash. It's working people...it had worked once before, but I'd sort of gotten lazy and let go of the principles I'd learned. That's why I decided to return to the library, pick up the book again and re-read it. I'm feeling more confident now, much happier and a lot more ambitious than before. I believe that the things I've learned in the books and am applying to my life will alter my entire being... the lifestyle I want is but a thought away...isn't that awesome! I wanna be a billionaire so frikkin bad...LOL...and so I shall! Take care my pretties... xo

I'm back...

Okay, I know I've said this before and I'd write and then disappear for months on end...but I'm truly back this time...lol...did you miss me? Of course you did...:o) Well, things have certainly changed in my life in the last little while...I've moved out of Sudbury...yep...I've left the Big Nickel behind for the warm, humid climate of the Niagara Region...such bliss...such heat...lol. It's absolutely gorgeous though...and we're never ever at a lack for something to do...we're either going for drives down the beautiful Niagara Parkway....shopping at quaint little shops in Niagara on the Lake...going to silly little museums and fun houses on Clifton Hill in the Falls...eating scrumptious meals at the Boat House in Niagara Falls...checking out savory confections all over the region...chocolate shops abound here by the way....going to Happy Rolph's to visit the newborn calf or baby donkeys and all their pals....feeding the ducks or swimming in Port Dalhousie...participating in Dragon Boat races in Welland, going to the Drive-In in Fonthill....ordering the world's best pizza from On The Mark in St. Kitts....I could go on and on....We love it here!!! Absolutely, positively LOVE LOVE it!! Oh, and I can't forget the fabulous new friends I've made here...I love you all!! Did I forget to mention our day trips to Toronto for the first ever Veggie Pride Parade...and the Gay Pride Parade....and...oh, well, you get the idea...it's been a fun filled, action packed summer so far and it's only just begun...I'm loving life and enjoying every single second of it....Love you my pretties...til I blog again...this time it should be relatively soon....I promise! lol...xoxoxo

Yes, I'm still alive!

Howdy people! I'm back and better than ever...I'm finally getting back on my feet after this horrific grief filled year. Troy got a new job which he started today and I've decided to rediscover my artistic side. I've been painting...a lot...with oils, acrylics and oil pastels...I've been painting mainly modern abstracts but also some pop art in oil pastels..I'm enjoying every single minute of it...Hopefully by spring I'll have enough paintings done to attend a craft show...things are finally starting to look up...I'm looking forward to Christmas and having all the kids over and eating some yummy turkey, and ham and tons and tons of goodies! Merry Christmas to all...and to all a good night...lol...By the way, I can't wait for 2010....2009 sucked the big one! lol...Talk to you later peeps...LOVE YOU ALL!!

Crossroads

How odd life seems these days. One minute things are alright, the next I'm whisked away by the turbulence that is my life. Chaos, stress, aggravation...these words all seem to embody my current state of being, chaotic, stressful and severely aggravated. The status of my relationship seems to be in question. My cat went missing and I'm worried sick about him. I don't know. There's a bear living in my yard. I hope to hell he hasn't eaten my cat...fuck! I'd like to say I'm having a shitty day, but it's more like I'm having a shitty life...know what I mean?? Yeah, I'm sure you do...anyway, that's all I gotta say for now...just wanted to get that off my chest.... BYE

Melancholy Baby...

I must say I can't wait for 2009 to be over. The year started off okay but it's just spiraled into the abyss since then and I'm free falling into hell. I've lost so much this year, from stupid things like furniture to incredibly important things like people. I feel so overwhelmed at times. I feel sad, empty, lost. I miss Diane and Uncle D. I miss their laughter, their spirit, their love. Although I'm surrounded by people who love me, I feel alone...so very alone. The stress is overwhelming. I just want simplicity. I want to be able to pick up a phone and call my Uncle D and tell him I love him and I'll see him soon. I can't believe he's gone. Christmas is around the corner and I'll pick up the movie Christmas Vacation and come to put it on; then I'll remember; Uncle D's gone...it was OUR movie...OUR ritual...Dad's gone, Uncle D's gone, Diane's gone...Jessica's moved into her own place...whichever way you slice it, I feel like I've been abandoned...either willingly or unwillingly. I know Troy's here for me. He loves me. I love him. It doesn't stop the pain, the sadness, the emptiness that's invaded my entire being. I hope and pray 2010 will bring happiness. I can't take anymore bad news, stress, sadness in my life. Hey, say a little prayer for me if you're reading this okay! I'd appreciate it! Bye for now...Mamacita, aka Melancholy Baby :(

Long time no talk...

Well, I know, I know, I've been keeping everybody out of the loop for some time now. Life has been crazy. I've moved out to the Valley...I went through another personal loss...I had a heart attack...life's been crazy...like I said! I don't know...don't you ever wonder if you're actually living the life you were meant to? I sometimes feel like I'm walking around in a dream...living some stranger's life... last year at this time I was working, single, living in a 2 bedroom apartment in the Flour Mill...now I'm engaged to be married, living in a beautiful 3 bedroom house, I have a whack of kids, a whack of animals and I'm no longer working due to my health... wild huh? Oh well, at least I'm here...and I have a much more varied life than I did this time last year...anyway, that's it for my update...I know it's short, but I'll tell you all more later! Love you bitches...