Silver Lining...

Okay, things are finally, very slowly starting to come together...I've got a plan. I think that may be what I've needed the whole time. My horoscope today said that I often envy other people's talents and wonder how I could accomplish similar things in my own life. It said that the only difference between myself and them is that they put their minds to it and were confident and went for it. Well, I guess that's what I should do, so I decided that that's what I'm going to do. I'm making a plan and sticking to it. Period. There ya go....lol...Okay, I'll keep you updated...

Ciao,

Mamacita

November

I know nobody reads this, and it's probably for the best anyway...nothing fun is ever written on here anymore...I just feel so lost...so down...so lonely... Everything is constantly upside down and inside out...when did my life become so fucked up? If you read my earlier postings all seems great, fantastic...exciting even...now; it's just crap. Depression, sadness, fear, loneliness...etc. I really want to wake up tomorrow and be somewhere else...be somebody else...somebody who is loved, and is living a life where she feels secure and balanced, healthy, happy. I want that for myself but I just don't know how to attain it. I really don't. I wish I had a mentor or some sort of wise old guru to lead me through this insane path I've been on lately. Somebody who could show me the way to happiness, or at least point me toward the right road that leads to it... I feel so completely alone in the world... anyway, I'll write again someday...not that anybody reads this...:(