Death waits for no one...

Well, I should have known it wouldn't be long before my serenity was shattered by yet another heartbreak... My favourite Uncle...My sweet, funny, loving Uncle David aka Uncle Ankle or Uncle D is gone. He got up this morning, just like every other morning, went to the bathroom, had a shower, shaved, had his coffee, got dressed, grabbed his lunch and left for work. According to reports from some of his coworkers, Uncle D had a very specific routine. He would get to work, park in front of his office in the exact same spot he has used for the last ten years, grab his lunch back, briefcase and coffee. He would lock the car, head into the office, smile and say a hearty "Good morning" to everybody. He would then proceed to his own office, set down his briefcase, put his lunch in his mini fridge and take a few sips of his coffee. He would then grab the coffee, go outside with a few of his coworkers, have a cigarette and head back in for the routine morning meeting. Today however, things weren't the same from the get go...Uncle D got up, had his shower, got changed, got his lunch ready and his coffee however, he was an hour late...according to my aunt he lingered in the car for a few minutes before leaving...which was very unusual for him. She was headed out the door to check on him when she saw him leave. According to his coworkers Uncle D showed up at work later than usual...parked on the side of the building, which was completely out of character for him, stayed in the car for about ten to fifteen minutes; got out of the car without his lunch bag or his coffee, headed straight past everybody and went directly into his office. He never came outside for the morning "smoke break/get together" and when it came time for the morning meeting, he was nowhere to be found. They paged him twice and feeling something must be wrong somebody was dispatched to go check his office. There they found him...lying on the floor....dead of a massive heart attack....he was 49 years old...I cannot express the pain and sorrow I am feeling right now. The loss I feel is so deep and so completely heart wrenching. Uncle D and I were close...we laughed together, enjoyed each other's company, cheered each other up, encouraged each other and were there to console each other during our toughest personal tragedies. Uncle D was pallbearer at my dad's funeral 3 years ago....Dad died july 25, 2006, and Uncle D died july 27, 2009...exactly 3 years and 2 days after my Dad...I was going to ask him to give me away at my wedding...I'm at a loss...Uncle D, you'll forever be in my heart...a huge piece has been broken off and has gone with you...I feel incomplete... when all my chips were down, you were always there with kind words, loving words, sincere words...wise words....I'll love you forever Uncle D...I'll forever mourn your loss! The world is a much sadder place without you in it, without you to share my triumphs and my defeats...I'll miss you my Uncle, my Confidant, my Friend....xoxoxoxoxo, You'll always be my Ankle, and I'll always be your Knees...xoxoxoxo

Serenity

At long last I'm sitting here...it's quiet...nobody's home except for me and my pets...the kids are at their mother's, Troy's at work, Jessica's at work...peace and quiet...wow...it's been so long I barely know what to do with myself. Sitting here I find that I have so many things I could be doing that I'm rather overwhelmed at the choices...lol...I could pack...yuck...or continue working on my rug...read, watch a show or a movie...sleep...call somebody...or just write a little something on my blog...Guess which I chose? lol...well, things are better than they were during my last post. We have a new home that we're moving into very soon...it's got a huge yard, basketball court, two sheds, two fire pits, a horseshoe pit...oh, and did I mention an above ground pool??? Oh yes...a huge, above ground pool...I can't wait to go swimming...we'd better start getting a summer or we wont even get to enjoy it...now that would be a pity... I'm anxious to invite people over for a bbq, a swim and a bonfire!! Oh yes, as I told everyone on facebook...I'm movin' on up...lol...well, I guess it's about time eh? Can't wait to move...hate moving, but like the thought that I'll finally have my dream home! I'll update you all once I've moved in and am settled...I'll post pics! Love you my pretties!! Ciao for now!

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Misery

The weather sucks, our rent-to-own deal fell through because our "landlord/seller" decided it would be easier to sell the house out from under us rather than get it up to code. There is mold growing in the form of very large mushrooms in Jessica's bedroom in the basement...the retaining wall was removed in the house therefore the upstairs is actually caving in as can be clearly seen from the outside as well as the kitchen ceiling which is drooping all to hell...they've never gotten us a new outside door for the back so if we open the big door our puppy gets out and runs all over God's creation....(he's 11 months old, part lab and part greyhound) ...you get the picture...anyway, the list of problems with the house goes on and on...so what does he do instead of repairing it for us...we get a knock at the door and it's a realtor letting us know he's been told to put up a sign since the owner has decided to put it up for sale...fuck the fact that he's got a deal with us, fuck the fact that I'm his wife's cousin, fuck the fact that we've been taking good care of the place and that we've pointed out what needs to be done and even offered to fix it....fuck all that...why should he care...it's too much life fucking work...better off to kick out a family who just moved it...got rid of half their stuff in order to move in here and has no place to go...fan-fucking-tastic... Not to mention, Troy's children are constantly coming back from their mother's place bruised, crying, taking temper tantrums, yadda yadda...we've gone to the CAS at least once a week in the last 3 months, with pictures, and complaints...they don't seem that concerned because the children's mother is saying they're just clumsy!!!! Now, the oldes child (who is 6 years old) tells the worker in person what her mother is doing to her...she describes both physical and sexual abuse...the worker tells us to keep them at our place and not send them to their mother's place since this time it's serious...she calls back the next day and says the mother says it never happened...so it's up to us if we want to send them back!!!!!WTF!! We brought them to the doctor's to have them checked out....the oldest repeated what she had told the CAS worker...the doctor called CAS...they apparently said that it's still being investigated...further interviews with their mother should be happening sometime soon...nothing else...WTF??? I'm at a loss....seriously...the kids may have to go back to a monster's home...we're probably losing our home...Troy is not well....I'm going to fucking lose it very shortly I assure you...HELP!!!!!!