Serenity

At long last I'm sitting here...it's quiet...nobody's home except for me and my pets...the kids are at their mother's, Troy's at work, Jessica's at work...peace and quiet...wow...it's been so long I barely know what to do with myself. Sitting here I find that I have so many things I could be doing that I'm rather overwhelmed at the choices...lol...I could pack...yuck...or continue working on my rug...read, watch a show or a movie...sleep...call somebody...or just write a little something on my blog...Guess which I chose? lol...well, things are better than they were during my last post. We have a new home that we're moving into very soon...it's got a huge yard, basketball court, two sheds, two fire pits, a horseshoe pit...oh, and did I mention an above ground pool??? Oh yes...a huge, above ground pool...I can't wait to go swimming...we'd better start getting a summer or we wont even get to enjoy it...now that would be a pity... I'm anxious to invite people over for a bbq, a swim and a bonfire!! Oh yes, as I told everyone on facebook...I'm movin' on up...lol...well, I guess it's about time eh? Can't wait to move...hate moving, but like the thought that I'll finally have my dream home! I'll update you all once I've moved in and am settled...I'll post pics! Love you my pretties!! Ciao for now!

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Misery

The weather sucks, our rent-to-own deal fell through because our "landlord/seller" decided it would be easier to sell the house out from under us rather than get it up to code. There is mold growing in the form of very large mushrooms in Jessica's bedroom in the basement...the retaining wall was removed in the house therefore the upstairs is actually caving in as can be clearly seen from the outside as well as the kitchen ceiling which is drooping all to hell...they've never gotten us a new outside door for the back so if we open the big door our puppy gets out and runs all over God's creation....(he's 11 months old, part lab and part greyhound) ...you get the picture...anyway, the list of problems with the house goes on and on...so what does he do instead of repairing it for us...we get a knock at the door and it's a realtor letting us know he's been told to put up a sign since the owner has decided to put it up for sale...fuck the fact that he's got a deal with us, fuck the fact that I'm his wife's cousin, fuck the fact that we've been taking good care of the place and that we've pointed out what needs to be done and even offered to fix it....fuck all that...why should he care...it's too much life fucking work...better off to kick out a family who just moved it...got rid of half their stuff in order to move in here and has no place to go...fan-fucking-tastic... Not to mention, Troy's children are constantly coming back from their mother's place bruised, crying, taking temper tantrums, yadda yadda...we've gone to the CAS at least once a week in the last 3 months, with pictures, and complaints...they don't seem that concerned because the children's mother is saying they're just clumsy!!!! Now, the oldes child (who is 6 years old) tells the worker in person what her mother is doing to her...she describes both physical and sexual abuse...the worker tells us to keep them at our place and not send them to their mother's place since this time it's serious...she calls back the next day and says the mother says it never happened...so it's up to us if we want to send them back!!!!!WTF!! We brought them to the doctor's to have them checked out....the oldest repeated what she had told the CAS worker...the doctor called CAS...they apparently said that it's still being investigated...further interviews with their mother should be happening sometime soon...nothing else...WTF??? I'm at a loss....seriously...the kids may have to go back to a monster's home...we're probably losing our home...Troy is not well....I'm going to fucking lose it very shortly I assure you...HELP!!!!!!

Summer, and clouds, and storms oh my!

Told ya summer wouldn't last long...lol...well, at least the storms are showing up throughout the night...not so bad I suppose... I felt I must post something considering that some of my childhood icons are dropping like flies and I'm starting to feel a little less invincible every day...lol... Okay, first of all...Farrah...dear blonde headed, hot bodied, envied by women, lusted after by men, adored, then later in life pitied Farrah...I suppose she lived a fairly rich life. I mean, men loved her, as I said, adored her actually...she had a buttload of money...but she never truly seemed happy. I mean, her son is in prison and wasn't able to attend her deathbed...her glorified "common law husband" was a drunk and woman beater. Nice....NOT! Well, rest in peace ye olde blonde bombshell... Okay, okay, secondly but certainly never ever least...Michael....oh yes...revered, adored, admired, rich beyond belief....loathed, hated, child molester, black, white, crazed man child Michael Jackson...what can I say? You taught us our abc's and 123's in the 60's (before my time, hehe), you were "Off the Wall" in the 70's, you "Thrilled" us in the 80's...you taught us it didn't matter if we were "Black or White" in the 90's then for all intents and purposes completely fell off the grid in the new millenium. I suppose nobody could blame you what with the lawsuits, bankruptcy threats, child molestation charges, health woes...yadda yadda...still, a little piece of me will always remember you as you were in your hayday...a moon walking, crotch grabbing, insanely rich, brilliant and talented teen idol. Thanks for the memories MJ.... Oh, I guess I should mention Ed McMahon died too....um...well....Johnny....Heeeeeeere's Eddie! :o) RIP ... Well, that's my rant for now...love you all.....and you all know who you are! ;)

Ciao for now my pretties....je t'aime...xoxo

Oh glorious summer...welcome back...

Oh how I miss those days of my childhood when all there was to do was swim, suck on popsicles and wait for the sun to go down to catch fireflies and sit by the campfire and roast wieners and marshmallows. I remember swimming all day... making sand castles, covering my entire body with mud then jumping back in the water and feeling how soft my skin would feel afterwards. I remember boat rides, fishing, and ghost stories. I remember hanging out at the arcade at Wilderness Park and attending bluegrass festivals. I remember drinking pop shoppe pop by the case and playing tag with all the kids in the campsite. I remember "Six Pack Lane" at Carol's Campsite and all the friends I made there. I remember running the chip stand and pretending I was older than my 13 years since it was against the law to work that young... I remember long walks in the woods, and going to the drive in with Rerun, and Evan and Belinda and Lynne. I do miss those days, however I suppose the time has come to make new memories. Those summers were the best of times though, and I never will forget them. I'll carry them in my heart forever. Oh glorious summer, welcome back...:o)

June...summer...oh summer...where are you??

Hello peeps...so, what have I been up to you ask? Not much... getting busy getting the house up to par, trying to get the yard to look decent, trying to find a new job..... Well, the good news is, I found one...yep, yep, I'm once again employed...I'm happy about that...I'll finally be able to catch up on some bills. I'm not a big fan of overdue notices if you know what I mean...so, finally I'll be able to go shopping and actually buy something once again instead of paying bills and have 13 cents left in the bank...lol...Oh well, c'est la vie...talk to you all soon...I'll let you guys know about the new job and how it's going real soon....

Ciao for now bellas,

Linda

The Merry Month of May...

Well, we're already into May and so far it's been a strange roller coaster ride through peaks of pure joy and depths of pure hell... I love my new home, and am thrilled at the way everything is coming along...the girls' rooms have been painted and decorated courtesy of Jessica, and there was relatively little to do except change the kitchen faucet and locks on the doors. I know there's much more to do later, but for now everything's fine... on the other hand, I lost one of my best friends, we had to go to court to settle custodial issues for the girls, we had to have one of the cats euthanized, the school and daycare for the girls are giving us a hard time...the fun never ends I tell ya... other than all of that I'm beginning to truly get restless...I need to get back to work... I'm not sure what I'll do, but I have to do something...I need to be able to have something in my life that doesn't revolve around court and exes and stress... I need an outlet...I love my new family, I really really do... I just need time to myself... and I have to figure out if that means returning to work, or starting my own business...dunno...not sure yet...guess I'll just go see the new Star Trek movie and pig out on greasy popcorn until I figure it out...;) Ciao for now Bellas...